Sunday, April 30, 2006

hengster @ 9:52 PM
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

my memory

archi drawing test this sunday at nus, so i have to go prepare some items to bring along
among those are my olevel and alevel certs

alevel cert i found straight away in my top cupboard
olevel cert i had totally no idea
as in seriously i could have kept it between one old copy of newsweek and gave it to garung guni

yes its tat bad
totally zilch knowledge of where i last saw it
so i had to conduct a full scale search for it

in the end i found it at this blue folder stacked rite at e bottom of a mountain of alevel notes

totally no recollection tat i ever put it there
tat is how bad my memory is

but the pt of this post is not that

haha. i wanted to talk bout the things i came across while looking for it

i looked at my kindergarten class photo: can u believe i just found a k1 k2 exclassmate? he was e one who discovered it when he came over and saw my k2 graduation photo

i looked at my volunteer prog stuff e bulk: of my sec 3 to j1 life was spent on it. so much time i have put into it, n now its just a distant memory. i wasnt prepared to let go of it at all, but why did i drift away? it brought me out frm darkness; now tat im in the light, why am i so ungrateful?

i looked at my alevel notes: so many things i needed to study, so many things tat seems like greek to me now. my job was to study back den, why was i so undevoted to it. now my job is to regret, and not make e same mistake again

i looked at my pri sch peer-comments paper: e kind where ur classmate write wad they feel of u. its amazing how much thought pri 6 kids can put into writing. and its amazing how it only seems to make sense now. nearly all of them said i had a talent in drawing comics, tat i am funny, and helpful. where am i now? have i proved all of them wrong? or are pri 6 kids' comments just not worth it

i looked at my messy room: i used to be veri orderly n neat. everithing must be exactly where it's supposed to be or i wun feel rite. until i got lazy. now everithing is everiwhere and i dunno where. with age i lose discipline. in the process wad else have i lost n not realised? there is so much improvement to my room on my mind now, but when i wake up tmr morning, how much of it will materialise?

my memory is veri selective. bits and pieces of old times i will remember to the vividest detail. some things i choose to forget, albeit not effectively sometimes. but my choice of things to forget: things i used to like to do, frens i used to be close with - those things are just too much for me to have decided to let go.

i miss my old frens, whom i have spent so insufficient effort to stay in touch. its not like our frenship wasnt worth the good-old test of time. my memory is just so lazy to decide to be selective, and tat is my fault

i m flawed as a fren, and tat is one gagantuan flaw. i cant seem to keep my close frens close long enough.

nowadays i see many more drifting away, and i dunwan em to end up like my old frens

i dunwan dunwan dunwan dunwan
arghs. dammit stop whining u shit!

i miss my oldself too. so many things i used to love. all lost when i grew up
why did i wanna grow up so much last time, only now to wish to be young again.

life contradicts indefinitely
too much thoughts on my mind now. im puzzled

somebody save me.
or at least wake me up so tat i can save myself.

hengster @ 12:37 AM
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

hengster @ 10:39 PM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006

Pictures From My ArtShop

hengster @ 1:56 AM
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2nd entry since blog revival

yay made some minor adjustments to the blog

changed the blogger scrollbar colour to black
added a few new links
and..
comments are now enabled!

to post a comment
1) click the "say something" link below every post
2) scroll down to bottom
3) click "post a comment"

i tink there is a shorter way to do this. anyone who noes please lemme noe! oh post a comment to tell me haha. thanks!

hengster @ 1:23 AM
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Friday, April 14, 2006

first entry: gambling

i bought toto today! an investment with potential returns of 2.8million ah!

haha. it was likedat.. went dinner with parents n grandma just now, den while waiting for food to arrive mum suggested i go buy some toto, cos got this logic tat first time buy will strike one. ha no harm trying, since she sponsoring the cost too ahhaah. i just had to go fill up the form and be the one making payment.

the singaporean dream: striking toto, 4D, big sweep.

in the case of toto, my $3.50 investment buys me the power of hope. hope tat when i strike it big i can do some big change to my life and to those of ppl i noe.

but seriously even at age of 20+ reaching 21 real soon i cant tink of wad to do with 2.8million.

yea yea i read rich dad, poor dad, and know all bout the financial intelligence stuff. but how much can i learn frm reading?

and i dun have anione close enuff to learn much about financial planning frm, so frm how i see it, 2.8million in my hand is just 2.8million waiting to be redistributed back to everione who din strike it big.

yes with 2.8million i can do so so many things, but with that also comes the inevitable drawback.

tat ill keep hoping a windfall can turn the tides of my financial situations.

if i keep tinking tat one day i COULD strike it big, i wun be so motivated to work hard animore.

and it wun be ever just $3.50. soon ill be tempted to bet more to increase my chances of winning.

and before i noe it will be obsessed with this and more forms of gambling, just to make ends meet.

nawh no way im gonna let tat happen.
luckily i dun like gambling ahah, i believe in doing things the safe and right way.

ill probably be an employee after my uni, and earn my first million systematically.

but i wun be contented for sure, and tats not a bad thing. i wan to be able to make a name for myself, and working for others i noe tat sure wun happen.
yeah but first i need my capital, i dun wanna be gambling with future money here man.

aniway, im saddened by e fact tat so so many aunties and uncles i see spend so much of their earnings on pieces of "hope-paper". tinking tat each piece will somehow fetch them tonnes of gold.

gambling is only a game, are u gonna gamble ur life away in a game? pls dont, especially if u have families to support. dun gamble their future away too. u dun own their future u bastards.

the real cost of gambling is loss of real work, and over-reliance on nature to save ur screwed up life. never hear before the chinese saying that if u keep on waiting for the rabbit to come it wun ever come?

u gotta go hunt ur own rabbit u understand. hunt one male one female, and soon u'll get the whole 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21, 34, 55 (fibonnacci) thing going. money can be 'grown' frm money, so u gotta earn ur capital money first. earn.

and i remember reading this Dilbert comic:

[[ Dogbert set up this store selling lottery tickets. he has two kinda tix for sale - one tat costs $2 the normal one, and one tat costs $0.50, the discounted one.

the only diff is tat with the discounted one u have 0.0001% LESS chance to win.
duh, of course buy the discounted one la! and so some idiot go n buy, and the reader soon realise that the 0.0001% is the chance of actualli striking lottery.

the discounted tix are actualli expired tickets of previous draw dates. ]]

hahah. ok my phrasing din sound too good if some of u cant catch e joke the comic intended. paiseh! if only i can find a way to put the comic up man w/o infringing copyright laws. k must go ask around n learn.

oops. i just realise i kaobei so much just cos of one toto ticket tat i bought. haha. yeah but i hafta write down, to remind myself tat relying on luck is just not the way.

to get good results, u gotta study hard. by relyin on luck u might as well hope for an examination paper given to u with all the answers already filled in. chances of tat? 0.0001%?

i promise to put in my best effort in uni man! ha. to catch up for lost time. ive wasted way too much chrono-energy arghs.

but aniway, hope the $3.50 i spent today fetches some return! ahah. walau money spend liao of course must hope for the best la, where got ppl buy liao den hope dun strike money??!

ha den again, lady luck always visits those who dun expect it. maybe i shud go reverse psychology this time ahha.

ok dun win! pls dun let me win 2.8million! =)

aniway, Dota section now! ahhaa

[[hero of the day: faceless void

item build: ring of regen, boots of elvenskin, boots of speed, gloves of haste, power threads, mithril hammer, maelstrom, eaglehorn, butterfly.

early game strat: pump up backtrack, helps ALOT. being able to dodge physical and MAGICAL attacks 25% of the time is more effective than increasing ur life by 25%, since u totally siam the attack. imagine lion's finger of death or a level 4 dagon triggering ur backtrack. machiam strike 4D. haha. yea get last hit on creeps, shud be easy at low levels since ur attack is above average. be wary of nukers nevertheless. life is a problem for faceless void at any level.

mid game strat: with good farming and some luck, churn out ur power threads and maelstrom asap. with threads and level 4 timelock(bash attack) u alreadi can own single heroes, but with maelstrom u can farm AND also get some double kills along the way.

late game strat: get a butterfly flying fast, for e high evade. basically no one can hit u now(as if u get hit a lot previously) dun bother adding life, ur life is too low aniway. get aegis if u are so scared of getting fragged.]]

ha ok. tat seems veri brief a guide for Dota. first attempt la give some support k! ill be better as time passes. yea aniway late alreadi n im starting to blur out, haha. write more when i wake up!

hengster @ 1:43 AM
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good friday '06

its good friday today! and tat shall also mark the revival of my long forgotten blog!

haa, welcome back everione who used to read my blog and now reading the latest entry by pure chance! ill try my utmost best to update u on my life n also bore u w my twisted logic as i used to do.

but now the difference is my extremely limited vocab! n horrendous grammar. kaos 2 yrs of army leh wad u expect huhh huhhh huhhh!

erps oops, sorrie for the rudeness. mwahahha. glad to be writing stuff again. ill take my time to recap my ns life, my clearing leave period now, and also my plans for uni this yr..

den i also decided to include a small section on this game called D.o.T.A., a modification to the warcraft:frozen throne computer game.. for the later part of my ns life almost the entire Saf seemed to be playing it. no joke. ha so im goin to chip in a bit as a tribute to one of the most creative efforts ive seen in e gaming world so far. feel free to comment! oh and for those who dun play pls skip hor i dun wanna bore u all ahah.

oh for those who dunno me or dun realli noe me, my blogging style is just likedat one la. like a journal, full of bad grammar singlish english hokkien teochew alienish. who ask u so much time come and read?? haha. not ur fault la, obviously everione have their own writing style mah so pls tolerate w me ba.

ok so much for the 'reintroduction' of my blog, my actual new blog ill write in a next entry, so stay tuned!

hengster @ 1:21 AM
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Thursday, April 13, 2006

hengster @ 4:41 PM
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