twisted logic - when one door closes, another opens

Thursday, July 31, 2003

yesterday was a fantastic day! hahah... I GOT A SILVER FOR MY NAPFA YESTERDAY!!! heh ultra happy liao...cos it's e first time i ever did 5 pull ups! yup now dun have to go in for early ns liao...can slack and play and learn to drive or even work after alevels...life is good!

heh, went science centre today! sis laughed at e idea of her jc2 kor going to e sci centre, and yarh i tink it's quite funny also, budden realised after e trip that it's not so bad after all... e defence stuff is realli relevant to practical life, and realli applies physics in so many ways...maybe i am just beginning to see the fun in physics hahaha...i dont mind working hard for a chance to float in space in astronaut suit some day...

oh yeah, can't be late for school anymore! kanna cwo again...hais...miscalculation on my part...tot e rule was three times late in three weeks, turned out to be three times in four weeks, yup so have to plant flowers wash toilets soon again..yeah i just love being free labour man..yucks...stoopid sch rules...

hmm, been thinking bout things...like how some ppl can be so nice some time, but just downright nasty on other days. just dont understand. and i m like so easily happy. even if i m veh angry or irritated by someone, if that person do something nice for me, i just forget every single thing tat happened. yarh, ppl are hard to understand, perhaps i'd only get enlightened when i reach 80 yrs old...

heh this is going to be quite a long entry...

hmm, been sleepy and inattentive in class lately...cant focus..mind keeps tinking bout other things..cannot likedat la...okai shall listen carefully in class and lectures frm tmr onwards! if slack again den shall ban myself frm tv and computer until prelims over...

i dunno why i am starting to dao smses nowadays. i tink it's realli a bad thing to do. hais. but i realli dunno wad to type. like i am now so distant frm tat person alredi. feel like helping, but also feel like not wanting to have much to do with her anymore. wads wrong with me? i tink i m just too narrow-minded. cant take things as it comes. cant forget. i shud change, shudnt i?

i tink i just have to accept this fact: many ppl are nice, and there's always a minority who are not. instead of being too concerned bout tat small percentage, be happy about knowing so many others who make e world a wonderful place.

it's 1am...gotta finish this soon or will be late for e third time in a row tmr liao...

realise i am quite bad to my papa and mama. yah will reflect bout this am try to do things tat make them happy more often.

mugging starts officially tmr! leisure activites shall include no more than basketball with frens, and absolute minimum contact with tv and computer as of 31 july...serious prelim prep shall start!!

hengster @ 1:04 AM
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Friday, July 25, 2003

bball is fun!

hahah spend a long afternoon playing it with classmates and other ppl yesterdae...heh exercising more nowadays in a bid to lose some weight and get ready for my chin-ups next tues...yarh napfa retests...dun get silver den i'll be having fun with e ns company as early as dec...

bleagh...spent yesterdae nite reading up net stuff on scientology...veh persuasive stuff...dangerous sia if dun tink properly den quite easily tink wad they say are realli true...was kinda interested in it at first hahah...e cult somehow uses a lot of e word "psychosomatic illnesses", which reminds me of that particular econs lecturer hahahaa... funny ppl...

arghs...been playing so so much comp lately...bout 2 hrs everiday on red alert 2 haahah...slacker crap! gotta mug soon man..

yarh...actually not in e right mood to blog much...write more next time den...

hengster @ 10:12 PM
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Wednesday, July 23, 2003

chemistry in context I

it normally starts out as dative bond towards something electronegative
(that gal who u recognise from ur dreams)

very soon denial sets in and u attempt to use e screening effect to hide e free electrons
(maybe im just tinking too much)

but one day it appeared like it wasnt dative after all
it is covalent
(did she do that cos im around?)

and e world seems so fine so wonderful
(e sun looks so bright and smiley up in e sky)

electrons now jumped to a higher energy level
seeking formation of a pi and sigma bond
(i should take e initiative shouldnt i?)

but things are never easy
seems like electron affinity is not so unique
(do i stand a chance?)

after a long long time of wandering in lost orbits
it became covalent
(life is beautiful)

but it turned out to be ionic
u have a stronger affinity for electrons
distorting that of the bonded atom
(i like her more than she likes me)

both of u became more aware of surroundings
became prone to id-id interactions
(maybe i would be better off with her instead)

lattice energy was considered
q+q- became weak
r+r- increased
soon lattice energy became endothermic
instability can no longer be contained
two atoms go in separate directions

fairy tales are meant for e storybooks

hengster @ 12:02 AM
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Tuesday, July 22, 2003

what a long day at school...just felt like i finished a long long marathon, which included a record 6-period non-stop physics combo...imagine sitting there for 4 hours, 240 mins, of pure newton's laws, V=IR, bernoulli's principles blah blah blah...haiz, e world is full of sufferings...

resolution of e week: be a more confident person
realised that i kinda realli tink lowly of myself, seems humble budden is just too scared to show wad i'm capable of...which seriously is dumb...i mean if a confident person can achieve so much more, like speaking in front of a huge crowd without feet trembling and words all jumbled up, there's simply no reason to choose to be someone who is not confident at all. confidence doesn't equate haughtiness or arrogance. it just shows true determination and self-belief. yarh i need that kinda inner strength.

stoopid stall four uncle...BOYCOTT RJC CANTEEN STORE FOUR!!!
[1] u get ur food in ultimate slow motion. e uncle will ask u wad u want, den suddenly lose his focus and go to meddle with some raw vegetables. den he will come back and ask u wad u want again. den he goes check out his famous oily chicken steaks. den he will come back and ask u wad u want.
[2] it defies all e laws of healthy eating. tink oil. tink lotsa lotsa oil. yah. damn gross. try frying an egg with half a pan of pure vegetable(i hope) oil.
[3] (new arrival!) u always get wad u DON'T want on ur plate. point to bean curd, he tells u how nice his fried chicken is. point again to bean curd, he picks up e fried chicken, ready to dump it on ur plate. point again to bean curd, well, maybe e fried chicken alredi mysteriously placed on ur plate will turn out edible.

Tamade. i wont ever buy food frm tat blardy @$%@#$ again.

hengster @ 11:38 PM
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it's nearly 5am in e morning now.

faintly remembered going to sleep at around 9pm yesterday...
arghzz!! i just woke up oh no!!! alarm supposed to wake me up at 9.30 one but it didn't!! diee.... i got like dunno how much work to be done... sian...

hmm yarh beta do work now... shall write a more proper entry later tonite..

hengster @ 5:04 AM
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Sunday, July 20, 2003

new blog!

okai, update bout my recent life:

common tests were not bad...did better than last time and better than expected, got C C E O for math econs chem and physics respectively. hahah had to ask my econs tutor for tat half mark tat would bring me frm D to C...
heh i always like nv study for my tests one, common tests esp, but scrape thru all e time...which is bad...if i had failed once seriously den tat would make me start to worry and mug seriously...
BUT nvm! as of today, i have decided tat i WILL be serious about my studies and concentrate in sch, and to do all my work... yeah i tink i realli can make it this time...heh better finish up this entry quickly den can go do my work

yarh, been feeling rather down lately, cos of a combination of things...

i'm officially broke! somehow used up all my secret savings in just two weeks, now i have to start saving up all over again...yah been trying to save up for ps2....args i realli realli want a ps2 to play all e nice games like metal gear solid 2 and chrono cross(ps1 game)...okai, i set target on thursday that i will save up at least 60 dollars in e next two weeks...which means i have to starve in sch unless i absolutely cannot tahan anymore... I WILL SURVIVE!!

am way way way behind my revision schedule, and its not revision in fact! i got so many things i never study before, thanks to my slack lifestyle e whole of last yr.... now i have to STUDY all e topics, before i can even talk about revising them...haiis my studyin life is how blardy screwed up.... oh yarh and what happened to my study group?! spent so much time one evening printing out a timetable for chem revision...den in e end how? nv use... nvm shall ask jie bout it again in sch tmr...seriously need peer pressure to coerce me into e mugging mood...

oh and i have tamade eye infection again!! walau...third time this yr alreadi, wads wrong with me? i clean my lenses so carefully all e time, and on average wear them for like 10 hours a day only, and still somehow my eyes this week feels veri itchy and a bit red here and there, kaoz...my sis everitime anyhow throw into solution also dun have such thing as infection, walau why so unfair one?

bleargh and because of e tamade infection and e highly possible fever coming up, i had to skip so many things...cant go xinrong's bday celebration, cant go out play bball with chengyang, and cannot go nj funfair with yv ppl like gary and bb...dammit, and had to stay home most of e time and go out have to wear glasses....arghs!! it better heal soon... or else i just have to stay home everiday and have lotsa fun mugging, yarh that would be fun....

oh yarh, i gonna learn driving this yr!! shall take e basic and advance theory tests soon, den end of yr can go for e practical driving sessions liao...yay! i can imagine myself driving my sis to school hahah! tat would be nice =) okai shall go get info on how to take e tests and e prep needed soon...

i hate rice!! why? sushi!! arghs...shouldnt have tried so hard stuffing all e 14+ plates of sushi down my stomach on thurs...now im quite scared of even e thought of sushi or rice liao.... shud be like one yr before i attempt to go near tat rice ball stuff again... hahah, oh realised caixia can eat quite a lot actually, 12+ plates plus e steamed egg(chawan-something)...and she like just ate sushi last week only... alright, my menu for next week: noodles noodles and more noodles

wah! its 7 plus alredi, supposed to do my compre since 5 pm..arghs..okai gotta finish up this quickly...

eeeeee...hate e template of this blog, but no choice, i know nth bout html...hais rem e old days of sec 1 n 2 where i knew so many things bout comp, all e programming crap...it would be like how useful rite...budden glad tat i din continue with e prog training stuff, cant imagine being a comp-noe-it-all at this time and day...

oh yarh, gotta make a mental note to reply eigene's letter by next week, owed her like 4 letters at least arledi...and haha have to write to my angel and mortal frm junior class soon...they dun look so frenly recently alredi cos i nv write to them in e last 2 mths or something...yucks im a lousy time-planner and ultra procrastinator...

kk, its realli late arledi, still have to warm up e soup for dinner and finish up e whole long list of assignments...okai, end off my new blog's first entry here liao...will write often frm now on hahah, yeah! i can do it! =)

hengster @ 7:02 PM
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