twisted logic - when one door closes, another opens

Sunday, August 10, 2003

in quite a nice mood now=)

was sick of reading my organic chem notes just now...so decided to tidy up my room...hmm somehow realised all my postcards and letters were scattered all over my room, so why not pack them all nicely? yup so i started searching around my room, firstly i need a box... found one, but its kinda big, so scavenged my cupboard and finally after rearranging almost everithing inside and nearly losing my balance while standing on e bed and crashing onto e wall, i found this old nike shoe box which i dun realli rem having...yup its not bad just e kinda box i have in mind..

so next i went to find e postcards and letters...some on e notes shelve, some on e cabinet above my study table, some in my drawer...ended up with quite a number of them...hmm so as i was packing them into e box i started to read some of them...heh realised this four yrs, ever since i joined yv in sec 3, i've met many many nice ppl...some i still quite close to them, some lost contact alredi...budden can still rem all of them clearly...

i tink memory is a realli good thing...i realised whenever i feel realli depressed and down and tat life totally sucks, it's e memory of e good times that keeps me going on...i rem all e nice ppl frm yv, all e things we have done together, and just simply e good old days, and tat is enough for me to regain hope for e future and look forward to tmr alredi...

and sometimes when anger or frustration clouds up my mind, i may have felt so lost and just want to run away and hide forever...but luckily some point in time i will remember e past, and gain strength frm it to carry on...things tat have passed may not all be nice, but it's actually e unpleasant things tat teach me e most...i hate e kinda feeling of being misunderstood, and because of tat nowadays i have taken to try to express myself clearer and clear any misunderstandings tat i have caused, and i guess it realli helped me a lot...

yarh like when i feel so damn fed up about studies and tat e world is so unfair, i can look back a yr ago, two yrs ago, and be happy about what i have experienced..this happiness is a kinda long term one, and i'm realli contented and looking forward to tmr just like e cheerful little kid i was in pri one...hahah...stupid alevels, u are just a small little ant lor...i'm gonna mug hard and give e old beer-drinking cambridge markers a darn good reason to give me good grades man...

okai, one of e letters tat i had packed just now caught my attention e most, and it was given to me at e time i was feeling e most down, two yrs ago...it realli saved me, realli...and yarh i like e quote inside:

"when the pathway seems long,
when temptation is strong,
when your strength's almost gone,
that's the time to press on."

hengster @ 9:35 PM
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